By Emily Rosman
Lately two words have been stuck inside my head, refusing to leave.
Like many college students, especially those graduating this May, I can’t help but think of all the things I didn’t do.
It’s human nature — at any age — to think about all the things that could have been accomplished or that could have been experienced.
I wish I’d joined more clubs that don’t specifically relate to my major. I wish I hadn’t wasted so many nights wasted. I wish I’d developed a more diverse group of friends with different interests. I wish I’d taken more electives like psychology or women’s studies.
I wish I’d explored more of the surrounding area by my university. I wish I’d gotten to know more of my professors. I wish I’d devoted more time, effort and energy to the clubs I was involved in. I wish I’d actually done some of the required readings.
I wish I’d listened more and talked less. I wish I’d spent more time focusing on practicing yoga. I wish I’d memorized the AP Stylebook. I wish I didn’t do things just to post them on social media. I wish I’d devoted more time to studying issues I strongly advocate for. I wish I’d been more involved with student government. I wish I’d read more.
I wish I’d had more time.
It all boils down to time. If I’d had more time, I could have easily accomplished all my wishes and then some. If I’d had more time, I wouldn’t regret the things I couldn’t accomplish.
Too often I find myself wishing time away. I wish it would be summer vacation already so I don’t have to study. I wish it would be fall semester already so I could be in Paris on my semester of studying abroad. I wish I was 30 years old so that I could have an apartment in New York City and a “big girl job.”
My life is so focused around wishing for what I want to do and wishing for time to do what I didn’t do. Missed opportunities and future endeavors cloud my thoughts daily. I don’t focus enough on the present or making the most of the time I am given.
So my goal for the rest of the semester, this summer at my internship and during my time abroad is to stop wishing, stop regretting, stop planning. I want to learn how to live in the moment and how to live it for myself, not for my Instagram account.
I want to learn how to be, not think about who I could become or who I could have been.
Emily Rosman is a junior journalism and mass communication major at St. Bonaventure University.
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